RIP another Kodak film and other stories.


Images from 2011. I used to make so many more photographs than I do now, and I want to rectify this wrong and begin making images with the recklessness I used to. There are benefits to being very cerebral about photography but often my favorite images were made at the moment- organic, spontaneous, serendipitous moments. I treasure those the most.

These were made using Kodak’s Profession BW400 Black and White Negative Film. It’s black and white film that can supposedly go through C-41 developer, which is for color. It’s not truly black and white, as you can tell. I’ve had sepia frames, some bordering on blue, others more purple, but it’s honestly so fun to see the hues and tones that this odd film gains in the developer. Guess what I found out this morning?! Apparently Kodak stopped making it in 2014! My heart gave a small twinge as I learned this. 5844433096_b56fa08112_b6066507859_effee73b87_b6066984108_77b034f8b8_b

So, rest in peace you delightful, fun film that I used 20 or 30 rolls of in my lifetime. You gave my photos delightful tones and added some drama to my small hometown summers. Kodak, stop killing my film options!


Head & heart elsewhere.


This last week has been mentally exhausting as several things have happened around the world. All of these are massively over-simplified as my emotionally exhausted mind cannot handle thinking about them for too long. Please read good news articles and sources for far better information than I can give.

-This morning there was a bombing in Istanbul in a busy central area on Istiklal Street. Having visited and become rather smitten with the city, this act of violence is especially painful. Turkey has been rocked by bombings since October 2015. The slowly more and more questionable political hand of President Recep Tayyip Erdoğan has also impacted the country. Freedom of the press, progressive stances on women’s rights, and reactions to the Gezi Protests have all demonstrated the political environment that has been changing over the years.

-This week three German states (Baden-Württemberg/ Rhineland-Palatinate/ Saxony-Anhalt) voted into power politicians of very conservative, anti-immigrant parties who also have very regressive views on the roles of women. I am very nervous as this does not feel like it will be an isolated incident but rather part of a wave of increasingly xenophobic politicians in the EU.

-In Brazil, in what is becoming increasingly complex, the country is facing massive protests, economic downturn, corruption investigations (Lava Jato, headed by Judge Sergio Moro), and the potential decay/collapse/fracturing of the Partido dos Trabalhadores (Worker’s Party) party in power as President Dilma Rousseff and ex-President Luiz Inácio Lula da Silva fight for their political lives.

-The EU voted to send asylum seekers back to Turkey, after all that they’ve been through, as the world shifts these bodies around like objects. (Also, America, get your ass in gear and start bringing refugees over and helping them start over!)

-Trump still exists. Don’t get me started on that horrid lizard man.

I’m sitting in a quiet Starbucks tucked away near a grocery store on quiet Vancouver Island but my mind is everywhere else but here.

A list of the good things.


  1. I changed light bulbs myself after moving my bed because it was the only thing tall enough for me to reach my ceiling. My apartment is now bright and conducive for work.
  2. Arabelle Sicardi’s Twitter
  3. Talking to your sister for 2 hours in one day about nothing and everything.
  4. A decent white noise machine that makes your apartment sound like rolling thunder.
  5. Falling asleep after a good chat with somebody.
  6. John Oliver’s imitation of Lindsay Graham’s Southern accent on Last Week Tonight.
  7. Learning about badass women around the world like Eva Peron and Clarice Lispector. (I started reading Agua Viva this week and fell into her world of femininity and darkness and never wanted to re-emerge to humanity. She writes with a fluidity that seems to defy all logic.)
  8. Knowing I’ll see my Mum soon.
  9. Talking and thinking about photograph projects you want to do.
  10. Getting adorable pictures of your parents on vacation together after you know your mum probably had to coax your dad to do it.
  11. Drinking tea when it’s just the right temperature.
  12. Getting stoked to see Savages play in May in Minneapolis.
  13. pollen_bb.jpgTHIS POLLEN COVERED BAT. How could you NOT smile at this adorable little flying mammal doing such good things for the planet?